34 to 40 – Life as a Recent Breast Cancer Survivor

I’ve been a breast cancer survivor for just over two years now – but last week that “status” was rocked.

I found lumps. Same breast. Same place actually. Cue many days of stress and panic, a shockingly unprof appointment with a GP (not my usual angels) and thank goodness a thorough ultrasound yesterday that showed nothing suspicious. Just glandular tissue – sounds lovely.

And I’m grateful again to be given my life back because when you’re threatened with a recurrence, you think you might just die on the spot.

It’s all just a little bit too “recent” when it comes with my survivorship. It’s still early days for my particular cancer – in fact the next few years are crucial.

Do I live in fear?

Yes – some days I’m crippled with the fear it will come back and that I won’t be here for my babies.

How do I manage it?

I live each day at a time. It’s what ‘they’ tell you to do. And they’re right with it – because it’s all we can do, isn’t it? Just survive each day. Learn to make the most of the happy and positive times and to try and push past the not-so-happy ones.

Mim Jenkinson

But the events of the last few days were a reminder again to be vigilant and to take more care of myself. I urge you to do the same.

We put ourselves last for our kids, quite rightly so most of the time. Just don’t neglect yourself too much.

Take time for yourself, look after your mental health. Physically, if something doesn’t feel quite right, ask your (good!) GP for advice.

When it comes to breast checks, if you don’t know how to do one, ask your GP or nurse to show you.

So with 34 weeks to go until I turn 40, I look forward to it more than ever. I don’t dread getting older, I pray for it.

I have the hope of being here, happy and healthy, surrounded by my family and friends and celebrating.

But for now I’ll focus on just getting through today.

And I’ll keep my fingers crossed x

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6 Comments

  1. 28th March 2018 / 5:36 am

    I know the exact thoughts and fears you are going through. Love each day as it comes and every day you wake up, day to yourself it’s another day to smile for.
    Big hugs to you x

    • Mim
      Author
      28th March 2018 / 9:48 am

      I love that so much and I will! Lots of love and hugs to you too x x

  2. Louise
    27th March 2018 / 7:55 pm

    A good friend of mine is now 2 year cancer free post melanoma. I supported her through all of the doctor visits and post surgery etc. Last week we went off to the GP again to get a new mole biopsied. Thankfully it’s all okay, but the realisation that it could be back, the biopsy and the waiting for results took us straight back to that metaphorical place again. It all became too real there for a while. Her experience brought us so much closer and we have a very unique, accepting and lovely relationship. She drives me crazy, but we’ve both seen the pure and basic side to life and the rawness in emotions. I wouldn’t change that for anything, her trust in me is such a gift. Love to you and happy days aging :)

    • Mim
      Author
      27th March 2018 / 7:58 pm

      Oh Louise you have me welling up big time – happy tears for your friend and the beautiful way you describe your friendship and outlook on life. You’re so very lucky to have each other and I’m sure she tells you all the time but thank you for supporting her x x lots of love to you both and thank you for sharing this x x

  3. Debbie Gulliver
    27th March 2018 / 6:22 pm

    Dear mim , sending all my love to you . I feel what you must have been going through, any time I get a different ache or pain you worry , before a diagnosis you wouldn’t have thought twice about it . Mine will be 3 years in August . But you’re right to enjoy every day , I definitely don’t take the small things for granted and love waking to hear the birds singing . And also I’m always saying I want to be an old lady xxx

    • Mim
      Author
      27th March 2018 / 6:30 pm

      Thank you so so much Debbie – it means so much to hear from someone who understands. Although of course I wish that you didn’t. Let’s promise to be old ladies! x x

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