A very big thank you!
I don’t know how to start this post except for these words – a very big THANK YOU!
Thank you so so much to everyone who took the time to read my post early this week about my second chemotherapy treatment.
Thank you to everyone who sent me messages, emails, called me, tweeted me and more.
I’ve said this before but thank you so so so so so much for all of your love and support. Honestly I’m just blown away with how absolutely lovely you have all been.
I know I mentioned in that last post that I was upset about the people who had not contacted me to see how I was or acknowledged that I have had cancer but I want to clarify that it it only a handful of people. A handful that do not matter to me now so please don’t think I’m crying into my, um, chocolate that they haven’t got in touch.
That just pales into insignificance when I think about how very lucky I am to have such an amazingly huge and supportive army of family and friends like you around me. My Cancer Fighting Army!
The amount of messages and calls I’ve had this week and also since my diagnosis has been huge and I feel so very lucky and grateful.
Friends from school who I haven’t spoken to in over 20 years (oh my word I’m old), ex-colleagues from many years ago, family members of my friends, complete strangers.
Offers of support, babysitting, bringing us freezer meals, transport to appointments, to hold my hand during chemo. It’s just endless.
I feel so humbled and grateful and lucky and loved.
Thank you for your understanding when it take me days, or even weeks, to reply to your messages and calls. I WILL get back to you.
I’m not always in the right frame of mind to reply straight away. Sometimes I can’t physically speak. I seem to have appointments a lot of the time and life is somehow busier than I can manage these days but it will pass.
I’m hoping my memory returns when chemo fades :)
I just want to say thank you to all of you.
When I wrote the account of my second chemo, it was at about 1am when I was in the thick of feeling the side effects. I woke up the next day and felt a little bit better but rather than not post it or edit it to reflect how I felt the next day, I left it as it was. I want the posts I write about my cancer treatment to be completely honest. Well that goes for everything I write.
Since I wrote it, every day that I’ve woken up since, I’ve felt better. Today, I feel pretty brilliant, almost human. I’m even drinking a beer – cheers!
It’s days like this that make me feel strong again and ready to face the next step of my treatment. I have 4 days now of feeling great and I intend to make the most of it.
Of course I’m dreading my 3rd AC chemo next week but at the same time I’m strong enough now to deal with it again and it will be another one ticked off in my plan.
I have 2 more AC chemo sessions, next week included, and then I will have 12 weeks of Taxol chemo. For that one it’s a shorter session and once per week and from everything I’ve been told, it’s much lighter and less aggressive than the one I’m doing now.
A beautiful breast cancer survivor, Denise at hellocourage.com who has undergone the same treatment plan as me, told me this week “With AC you want to die – with Paclitaxel (Taxol) you want to live. That is the HUGE difference!!”.
I’m keeping that in the forefront of my mind and it’s giving me so much motivation and strength to keep going – as are you all!
The loveliest thing happened today – 2 parcels arrived. One was from two of my awesome besties, T and E.
Inside was the most beautiful dressing gown and slippers from one of my absolutely favourite stores, Peter Alexander. They are just so lovely! Thank you, thank you beautiful girls for the lovely card and gift – you are two of my dearest friends and I love you both so much. Thank you for being as amazingly lovely and considerate as you always are.
The second parcel was from the UK which made me think my family must have sent it. I was so excited to open the pretty packaging and read the card to to my amazement it wasn’t from my family but from some of my absolutely wonderful blogging friends!!
Inside the beautifully wrapped parcel were so many treats: a beautiful planner, notebooks, pen, washi tape, nail polish and a Kindle – a KINDLE! Plus a voucher to buy books for it. I’m still a bit lost for words really, it was just the biggest surprise and I’m so grateful. Thank you all so much to the following amazing ladies – and I’m sure you already do but if you don’t, check out their wonderful blogs:
Amy at Mr & Mrs T Plus 3
Renee Davis at Mummy Tries
Kate Flint at What Katy Said
Katy Cox at Carry on Katy
Donna at What the Redhead Said
Aby at You Baby Me Mummy
Stevie at A Cornish Mum
Katie at Pouting in Heels
Leigh at Headspace Perspective
Laura at Life With Baby Kicks
Vicki at Honest Mum
Hannah at Mums Days
Hannah at Budding Smiles
Kara at Innocent Charms Chats
Kat at Beau Twins
Look at my beautiful gift!
Earlier in the week some gorgeous flowers arrived from my very good friend Adele!
Thank you to all of my other beautiful friends for the gifts and flowers sent before now too – you’re all wonderful and I love you.
One more time, thank you so so much to all of you again for your endless support. You really are the best support network I could possibly hope for.
To know that, although I might feel sad or lonely or scared at times, I have you all here for me just means the world.
Thank you x x x