Excuse me, have you seen my opinions anywhere?

No, seriously, have you seen my opinions? I appear to have lost most of them.

Confused? I suppose it depends on how long you’ve know me. Pre-blog even.

Back in the day, not that long ago really, I was perhaps the most opinionated person in my circle of friends. Not obnoxiously so (I hope), but always very firm in what I believed was right or wrong, interesting or not.

Not too many grey areas, only some. I knew who I was, what I wanted and definitely what I wanted for other people. Ok, the latter hasn’t changed much, I’m still very forthcoming with giving advice on how I think my friends should live their lives. Charitably, I don’t even wait for them to ask me. They love me for that I’m sure.

These days though, I seem to be happy sitting atop all of the fences and I can’t decide why.

Am I fearful of drama? Am I wise enough to know what is and what is not important now? Or, God forbid, am I just boring? It’s rhetorical, don’t you dare answer that last one.

Over time, I’ve literally shushed myself.

It doesn’t help that, working from home, I don’t even have any colleagues to push my helpful advice on to in an actual conversation.

Cancer scared the crap out of me of course and made me yearn for a simple and carefree life. So I suppose I don’t seek out any unnecessary drama these days and I back away from most confrontational situations.

At the same time, the diagnosis made me rethink what was important to me. Including who was important to me, and who was not.

So I suppose my life is much more simple these days.

I just don’t want to be boring though and I wonder if I’ve lost my spark. I’m proud of the posts I put out on this blog but I think they’ve taken somewhat of a “middle of the road” turn in the past year or so.

I’ll never be one to purposefully create drama off- or online. I don’t yearn for any of my posts to ever go viral. I have no interest in provoking heated debates. You won’t find click bait on my corner of the internet.

I do miss the humour though, as a writer. I mean, I used to be funny at times I think. Maybe I’ve lost my spark a little bit there but I want to get it back.

I suppose some of us, as we get older, mellow a bit and that’s probably a good thing in many respects. A lot of us are parents and are role models to impressionable, small people.

But hang on a minute, I’m pretty sure a lot of people get more outspoken with age! We all know that older person who gives absolutely no shits what she or he says. Isn’t that one of the benefits of getting old? That you can pretty much say and do what you like because you’ve paid your dues?

I’m just ready for a bit more fun and to get back to being like my old self again. We’ll see.

Anyway, I will leave you with links to two blogs I love by two hilariously candid blogging buddies over at Hugzilla and Nessville. If you haven’t already checked them out, I urge you to!

Do you feel like you’re less opinionated as you get older or more than you were before?

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4 Comments

  1. Dianne
    3rd July 2017 / 9:55 pm

    We’re females and supposed to shut up and take care of everyone, well, that’s what I learnt when I was growing up. Girls are capable and can do things for themselves, boys aren’t. I was always being told off for asking questions. Also in a lot of families girls are supposed to be seen and not heard still, such a shame when there are so many bright, intelligent and capable ones out there, boys too! Don’t know if it’s because I’ve been ill or getting older though, but I find myself not wanting to be involved with the multitude who are completely wrapped up in themselves and their phones. Decent humans are becoming a rare commodity around here.

    • 4th July 2017 / 1:40 pm

      Oh I get you on the phone thing – and you know, I’ll hold my hands up and confess to being bad too. It’s a bad example to the kids and I’m much more mindful now to just put the phone down! x

  2. 27th June 2017 / 6:55 pm

    First of all, I don’t think you’re boring at all! I suppose we have been through a lot and it probably does change us in many ways…
    Anyway, I think the best bloggers can mix it up a bit with some useful posts and others that are more personal or humourous or whatever. I think you have the right balance. I often feel like I’m just waffling on about nothing, so I’m happy that my ramblings amuse someone. Thanks so much for the mention. I don’t think I’m anywhere in the league of the witty and hilarious Hugzilla. But if you insist… hee hee…

    • 27th June 2017 / 6:58 pm

      I do insist!! I LOVE your blog so so much, you literally make me howl with laughter :) Thanks lovely x x

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