Well chemo is finished and in another few weeks, I’ll be done with radiation too – I’m nearly at the finish line of this breast cancer business! Now I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, I’ve started to allow myself to plan for the future and I’ve started writing my Post Cancer Bucket List.
These are the things I haven’t been able to do, or haven’t wanted to do since my diagnosis and treatment. Some big, some small. Mainly, the things I totally took for granted before I got cancer.
So here it is, my post cancer bucket list!
1. Grow some hair
Come on hair, you can do it! That includes eyebrows and eyelashes too.
But not just growing back my hair, I’m also looking forward to seeing it in different lengths and styles. Rather like Samson, my hair has always (in my mind) been my crowning glory and I’ve never had the guts to cut it short. So I’m looking forward to experimenting a bit with different short styles! I might document them on Instagram, so you really should click here and follow me!
2. Rubbing my eyes
I don’t mean just a light rub though, I mean really RUBBING them. Rubbing them, confident in the knowledge that I won’t rub them bald.
Oh how lovely it must be to give your eyes a lovely big old rub. Do it now! Was it good? How I long for the day when I can rub my eyes. Small things, I did warn you.
The physical and mental scars of cancer and surgery will probably take years to heal and I’m guessing that some of those mental scars never really will.
I will never truly feel ‘carefree’ again. Cancer will probably always be the first and last thing on my mind most days, at least for the foreseeable future. In time though, I will heal more and more and I’m looking forward to that.
4. Getting fitter
During my cancer treatment, I put on weight. The chemo left me exhausted and weak and my fitness levels, already fairly crap, plummeted to their lowest yet. I’m looking forward to gradually improving that though and I’m working with an Exercise Physiologist to make a start.
5. Having my Portacath removed
Now I did think this would be removed straight after chemo finished but my Oncologist wants me to keep it in for 1-2 years – just…in…….case.
I don’t know how I feel about it, I’m leaving it for now but if it gets too uncomfortable (just when I sleep) or it stops me mentally moving on, I might have to get it removed.
Just as soon as I have some hair and can stop wigging it, I’m totally going to throw a party and celebrate with all the lovely friends and family who have supported me through the past few months.
I imagine karaoke will feature :) And wine. LOTS of wine.
7. Going on a Date Night
With my husband of course! During the past 6 months, we haven’t had much time for just the two of us and in the evenings, I’m usually pretty shattered from the treatment side effects.
I’m looking forward to, if the parents will babysit!, going out for dinner and drinks with Mr M and just enjoying each others company away from the minis and the hospitals.
8. Having a Family Holiday
I don’t care where we go, but we’re going somewhere! We’re having a weekend break soon but I’d love for us to go somewhere as a family for a week or so before the end of the year.
Basically, I want to be ‘normal’ again. I want to live my life like you do yours.
I don’t imagine for a second that I’ll ever be anything close to the woman I was pre-breast cancer but you know what, I’m pretty pleased with the person this diagnosis has turned me into.
I’m on the road to recovery, I can see the finish line and I’m about to jump over it.
I just wish my hair would catch up with the rest of me!
What’s on your bucket list? What would you do if money/time/anything else was no object?